Welcome back! I can't believe it's been almost a year since I have posted any pictures. My mom keeps hounding me to post some pictures so she can keep up on her little grandkids. So here goes, this one is for you mom!
Sunday, October 10, 2010
It's been almost a year!!!
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Monday, November 9, 2009
I love my family!
I haven't read through blogs or even looked at my blog in months, because there is one pressing occurrence in my life that I knew I needed to write about and document and I haven't wanted to let my heart open the wound again.
I was looking at my calender this morning and I realized that tomorrow would have been my baby's due date....so maybe now is a good time.
Back in the end of April, I was 3 months pregnant and I took Dallin and Thatcher with me to the Doctor's appointment so they could hear the baby's heart beat for the first time, but there was no heart beat. The doctor told me that the baby had died a week earlier. I was completely shocked and could hardly get control of myself to drive home. Poor Dallin and Thatcher didn't know what was going on. I simply told them that the baby's heart had stopped and the baby went back to live with Heavenly Father and Jesus. I was thankful that it really didn't affect them at all; later I remember hearing Dallin talking to my friend and just saying matter of factly that our baby died and went back to live with Heavenly Father.
The first few weeks were extremely traumatic for me and I remember thinking how it affected every part of me: spiritually, emotionally and physically. I never really asked "why me?" and got angry, I was more just hurt about it. My ward was amazing! One of our good friends came over before my D &C and assisted Jason in giving me a blessing, before he was leaving he said to remember that I needed to "let" people help me. That really hit me, because I really did want to be strong and I didn't feel like I needed help other than what Jason was already doing and providing for me. But, my amazing friends from church brought dinners in, sent cards and emails, gave flowers and chocolates and I felt so emotionally supported it was amazing.
I remember I was watching reruns of conference a night or two after we found out, while Jason took the boys outside to ride bikes and I was listening to a talk about one of the apostles that lost a newborn baby girl and a 2 year old boy in a matter of weeks of each other. He was talking about how he felt and also about how the Lord blessed and supported him during that time. While he was talking I was completely filled with the spirit. I felt every empty hole inside of me filled to the top and even overflowed! It was amazing. I was so grateful to my Heavenly Father. I felt so loved by Him and that he would comfort me and fill me like that when I was empty.
It was still a rough couple of months healing emotionally and physically, but time has really helped and also I find that the more I talk about it, the more I find others who have been in my same situation and it really has drawn me closer to women in general...
One thing I do remember is the Sunday after I found out the baby died, I went to church and at least half the people there knew what had happened, but at least half DIDN'T know and I remember thinking. They don't know....I have been through a traumatic, life changing experience this week and they don't know... I was talking to a good friend of mine, Holly Hansen, and she was saying that you just never know what people have been through each week. We see our friends and wave and say Hi in the hall, but do we really know what people are struggling with at home? She said, that's why we need to always treat people with the utmost kindness and give them the benefit of the doubt in every way we can, because we just don't know. ... Such a source of wisdom.
Through all the tests after the miscarriage I found that I have a blood clot disorder (MTHFR). My blood clots too easily. That's what happened to the baby, there was a blood clot in the umbilical cord and the baby didn't get nourished. Now every time I am pregnant, from day 1 to the end I have to give myself a shot in the stomach of Lovenox (blood thinner) every morning, it may turn my stomach black and blue and it may be very painful, but do you know what? If it works, it's worth it.
My siblings actually don't know this, but a couple of months ago I miscarried again. I was only 6-7 weeks along and so even though it was sad to have 2 in a row, it wasn't nearly as traumatic as the first miscarriage. After 2 in a row though....you really start to wonder if you are going to be able to carry any more children....but I try to quickly push those thoughts out of my mind, because I am not ready to think about things like that. I have to tell you though that I had 2 AMAZING experiences the week before the 2nd miscarriage. On Thursday night, Jason and I went to stake temple night, during one of the prayers, the man prayed for all the people whose names were on a list and that needed it....I almost started crying because I knew I was just barely pregnant and I was afraid. I knew that after the session my name would be on that list. He prayed that they would have the desires of their hearts, and the minute he said that my heart did a little jump, but then he said "according to Thy will" and I was filled with a peace and acceptance. That Yes! Whatever happened was going to be the Lord's will. I felt joy even though I knew I could possibly loose the child again. I accepted it, because I knew it would be whatever the Lord wanted.
Three days later I was sitting in Sunday School and we were talking about the Martin and Willie handcart companies and our amazing teacher was talking about ALL they had to go through and suffer to refine them and because it was the Lord's will. He asked the class if we would still hold strong amidst our trials and sufferings. I thought about what I had suffered and possibly what I may have to suffer in the future that could even be a lot worse than what I had already been through. I thought about the possibility that I might not have any more children and I asked myself...."If this is really what the Lord has in store for me, will I be okay with that? Will I still be strong and valiant in my faith and trust in our Heavenly Father's plan for me?" YES! I knew that I would accept anything the Lord has in store for me, it doesn't mean that I would not be sad about it, but I knew that I would still be as valiant probably even more so that I am today. I was completely filled again and I wasn't afraid anymore about what would happen because I knew I would be okay with whatever did happen. Two days later the nurse called me and told me my blood tests showed the pregnancy wasn't going to make it and that I would probably miscarry within the next week. As I was on the phone with her, I immediately was reminded about these 2 experiences that I had had merely days before and realized that Heavenly Father had helped "prepare" me for what was to come.
I have to say that even though this has been a really trying time for me, that it has been an intensely spiritual time for me as well and I feel like I am a better person for the experiences I have gone through. I have really just wanted to get this post down on paper for posterity reasons. I want my kids and anyone else in my family to know that I know that our Heavenly Father loves each of us and he KNOWS us and what we are going through. And that if we will let him he will support us and lift us and comfort us in whatever we maybe asked to go through in this life.
I can say that there has been a bit of a different dynamic in my family over the past few months. Going through this experience has really awakened me to a sense of how precious Dallin and Thatcher are. I love them so much and I thank Heavenly Father everyday for allowing 2 very precious spirits to bless our home! I love my family!
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Tuesday, July 7, 2009
I'm so sweet!
This morning Thatcher came into my room and climbed up on my bed; as we were laying there playing, I noticed that he had a pretty stuffed up nose. I was teasing him a bit as I held up a piece of paper that had a teddy bear on it and said, "Here Thatcher, smell this." He did and then I asked him what it smelled like, he got a big smile on his face and said, "Chocolate!!!" I laughed so hard. So then I really wanted to test him, I said "Thatcher smell my armpit!" He leaned over and smelled my elbow and said "MMmmmmm, CHOCOLATE!!!"
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Monday, July 6, 2009
Close your eyes Thatcher!
You know how it takes kids awhile to learn how to wink? Well, Thatcher is having trouble just learning how to close his eyes, and the face he makes while doing it is to die for!!
He is adorable and he KNOWS it!
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Tuesday, March 24, 2009
I vehemently dislike spiders
I don't know if any of you will remember my post from last November, but we went to AZ for an Olson Family reunion. For one of the day activities we went rappelling at Coon's Bluff and while we were all sitting around on camp chairs watching other rappel. This little nasty came waltzing out of the bushes and walked right in the midst of all our chairs.
Isn't that just disgusting? Amber just sent us a CD with pictures from that whole week and these were a couple of them on the CD. I just had to share them with you, because how often do you see a spider like this in real life?!?
I am going to end the post now, because I am getting the willies just looking at the pictures. Sweet dreams tonight, eh?
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Monday, March 23, 2009
Family date night!
Lately we have been doing a family date night, which entails eating pizza in the TV room (huge treat) while sitting on the family picnic blanket and watching a movie. Sometimes we shake it up a bit and go out to dinner. :) Either way, the night ends up like this, with our 2 little indians snuggled together in their teepee....fast asleep. After trying it the first night, Dallin came into our room in the morning and woke us up with this...."Mom, did you know Thatcher breaths like this?" To which he then flared his nostrils, opened his eyes really wide and inhaled like he was trying to suck and elephant through a straw, with his nose.
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Sunday, March 15, 2009
Christmas the whole year through!
Yeah, ya, ya, I do happen to know that it's March and I am just now posting about Christmas. But I just took some time and read through all your wonderful blogs and it inspired me to get caught up and so hopefully I will get on top of things.
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Friday, March 6, 2009
The highlight of my week.
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Thursday, January 8, 2009
Kids say the darn-dest things...and husbands do too!
Just in the last week I have heard all 3 of my boys say really cute or funny things. I kept thinking to myself that I needed to write it down so I didn't forget this fun time in our lives.A couple of nights ago, I was intently working on a sewing project (making the boys bedspreads) and Jason, Dallin and Thatcher were running through the rooms playing some sort of wrestle, tag, shoot each other with Nerf guns game as they jumped off the stairs and the couch. They were having a blast! Suddenly Jason turned to me and said "Do you realize if we had 2 girls instead of 2 boys I would be playing BARBIES instead of this?!?!" We both just burst out laughing. I had to remind him though that quite possibly some time in his life he would need to be able to play barbies too.
During that same game, Jason tried to tone it down a little and started a shooting game at the front door to see who could be more accurate. "Ok Dallin, see that little hole? We are going to shoot the peep hole," Jason said. To which, Dallin became all distressed and cried "Nooooooo! Mommy said I can't shoot people!"
And last but not least, a couple days ago, we had some friends over. The kids where having a grand time playing while me and my friend worked on sewing projects at the kitchen table. Thatcher was starting to become very tired and so I took him upstairs to lay him down for a nap. We sat in the rocking chair for awhile and tried to read some books together, but Thatcher did NOT want to lay down. He was squirming all over and crying to go downstairs. He tried every tactic from physically trying to maneuver and get off my lap, to begging, to asking kindly with all sorts of "please and thank you's" and finally he just looked up at me and in his little, almost 2 year old voice, demanded "BE FAIR, MOMMY! BE FAIR! I didn't even know he knew those words, it was really funny. And just because it was so cute and so smart of him.....I let him go back down stairs. :)
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Saturday, January 3, 2009
This and that and a Thanksgiving update
Today is a monumental day for me. It was the first day that I woke up (in about a month) when I didn't have a sore throat. I went to the doctor yesterday thinking, "Surely I had strep" I mean, come on....how does the average cold/sore throat last over a month? But, actually the doctor told me that I have a sinus infection and it was dripping down my throat (yummy) and making my throat raw. Anyway, after 1 day on meds....waking up was a whole different experience for me. :) Kind of nice, actually.
One more thing before I move on to something actually worth reading....you know how the doctors are always telling you to finish the prescription even though you start feeling better? Well, the last winter, when I was taking meds to get over bronchitis I decided that this time I was going to finish off the prescription. About a week later my tongue started hurting so bad. It was really weird. Not just when I was eating, but talking and just moving my tongue in general hurt really bad. After a couple days, my tongue started getting white stuff on it. I kept putting off calling the doctor because ...how do you call the doctor and make an appointment because you have pain....in your tongue. Just sounds a little strange you know, but finally I did and it turns out that taking all the medication killed off all the good bacteria too....and so I developed thrush. Hmmm, interesting huh? I don't think I will finish a prescription again...ever.
OK now onto the good stuff with pictures. Well, Happy New Year Everyone!!!! I guess I need to start back and blog about Thanksgiving.... :)For Thanksgiving we flew to AZ to visit Jason's family and had a blast. We stayed at his brother's house and they have 4 kids and so it really was on long party week. We had a week long family reunion but didn't go anywhere. We ate all our meals together with all of Jason's immediate family, which included his parents, 4 other married siblings and their kids and 2 other siblings still at home (29 total), had day and night activities all week long. It was so much fun!!! Here were some of the highlights:
Picnics in the park, rappelling at Coon's bluff, having a nasty, hairy tarantula about as big as my hand crawl out from the bushes and right between 2 of our camp chairs while we were sitting there chatting, tie dying T-shirts, everyone wearing them to Castles and Coasters, group date night, and of course the favorite family talent show. It really was so much fun and the week went by really fast!
Unfortunately the only picture that I have is the one above. :) I will have to email Amber and ask her to send me some of hers.
That's all for now folks!
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Thursday, November 13, 2008
An eye for an eye....
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Thursday, October 16, 2008
A babe of many hats!
Some kids have a favorite blanket that they can't live without, but our son has a fettish for hats.
He is always wanting to wear a hat, whether he is playing inside or out...
Taking a bath.....
Or going to sleep.
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Wednesday, October 15, 2008
One of those days....
Today was one of those days where you are getting ready for bed and you happen to glance in the mirror on your way to the bathroom, only to be stopped dead in your tracks, as you realize,......
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Friday, October 10, 2008
Ever tried waterskiing in a snowsuit?
This morning it was 37 degrees at 7am.....and guess where we were? We took the boat out on Lake Sammamish to do a little skiing and wake boarding before Jason went to work. The kids literally were in their snow suits, with mittens, hats and sippy cups full of hot chocolate.
We had dry suits to wear, but it was still freezing once you got up. Because now your head, hands and feet were wet and the cold 37 degree weather was now blowing on you. Jason's friend, Scott, came with us so that we could be legal and have a flagger. Actually most times we go out Scott comes with us... (Jason and Scott are like 2 peas in a pod) Or as Anne of Avonlea would say, they are "Bosom Buddies" ..at least they are when it comes to boats and wake boarding. This is actually a picture of Scott wake boarding, but it really showed all the steam coming off the lake that early in the morning. Frigid, I know.
Remember when you were in middle school and you planned a double wedding with your best friend? Well, Jason and Scott, bought matching boats within 2-3 weeks of each other and then bought matching wake board towers as well. It's like middle school all over again, but in a good way. But I digress....
Tonight we had a new family from our neighborhood over for dinner and it was really fun. They are originally from Canada, but recently moved here from Wenatchee. They were really fun and I was surprised to hear that they love to play DDR (Dance Dance Revolution). It was a blast to play with another family that would actually get up and do it with us. Most people are too embarrassed to try and so Jason and I end up making an exhibition of ourselves.
The dad, Cam, was really impressed with how well Dallin could play the XBOX. I don't really know if that is a good thing though. :) Dallin has gotten really really good....Jason has been hoping to find an XBOX competition somewhere and enter him.
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Thursday, October 9, 2008
These are a few of my favorite things!
Sometimes I feel like my very favorite hours of the day are from 9pm to midnight.
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Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Shots, shots and then....more shots.
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Sunday, October 5, 2008
Dallin turns 4...finally!
Dallin has been counting down for MONTHS until his birthday and I am not kidding. I went back and forth about whether or not I wanted to have a "friend" birthday party for him but after all his excitement and anticipation I really did want to make it a special day for him.
Then we played all manner of nasty germ infested games, (but we earned lots of tickets and so it was worth it!!!)
And then we had cake and ice cream and opened more presents. Thanks everyone! Dallin is still talking about his birthday at Chuck E. Cheetos!
Dallin you are definitely the "biggest boy." I remember just a few short years ago that I used to call you "Tiny" but you probably don't remember that. I can't believe how fast you have grown and it makes me sad. I miss you....is that even possible because you are just in the next room, breathing deeply and occasionally talking in your sleep. What I mean, is that sometimes I miss your little you. Oh! don't get me wrong, your big you, is very fun too. Completely full of life and a little mischief and a lot of independence. Sometimes when I think about you having to be the oldest child, it makes me sad. I am definitely not a perfect mom and every time you get to a knew stage it always takes me awhile to "figure things out." I am sorry that you have to be the guinea pig for our family and for your siblings. You are sooo smart though, I know whatever you choose in life, you'll be fantastic.
And I'm not just saying that because I am your mom. :)
I love you a million trillion dollars!
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Thursday, September 18, 2008
Liquid GOLD!
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Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Yeah, but can your 3 yr old do this?!?!?!
A couple of months ago Dallin learned how to ride a bike without training wheels. I couldn't believe it. I helped him 2 different times to practice riding and on the 2nd time he was yelling at me to let him go....I figured that he would crash and burn and that would be the end of his independence, but to my utter amazement....he rode away from me and turned around and rode back. I went right in and called Jason.
Jason: Hello?
Jen: Hey hon, I just had to apologize but I accidentally taught Dallin how to ride a bike.....
I figured that this was something that Jason would want to teach Dallin and somehow I had taken that away from him.
Jason: Yeah, it's something I would have liked to do with him, but I understand....there's just no holding that kid back!
Ain't that the truth!
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Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Surprise, surprise!!!
For the past year, Jason has been researching boats and watching Craigs list. Last spring he started ground on creating his own company called Wakeshares (basically ski boat time shares but for really nice ski boats. :) And when that didn't happen he has been dying to get his own boat. All along I was firm on...."No, we are not getting a boat. Our kids are too little and we don't have a permanent place to live yet." Nevertheless, Jason was persistant in finding something that would work for us. He became so obsessed that every other word out of his mouth (for the past 6 months) was either: boat or wakeboarding.
I do have to admit that on especially sunny days as we would pass the Lake as we drove in that car I would think to myself, "It would be so fun to have a boat!" But, then I would remind myself..."Get a grip girl, do not let your guard down for 1 minute."
Well, it happened a couple weeks ago that Jason found this little gem of a ski boat.....in San Francisco. He sent his brother Jeremy to look at it with a check list of about 50+ things to look at. Jeremy and his family took the boat out on the water, drove it around and gave Jason a big thumbs up. It was then that I had a moment of weakness. After talking to Jeremy, seeing all the pictures they took that I said...."Hmmm, it is kindof a cute boat......" Jason looked at me and was ever so hopeful. "OH, ALRIGHT! You better call the guy right NOW and make a deal before I change my mind in the next 5 minutes." Which he promptly did....and voile! We had ourselves a boat. The only problem was that we were here and the boat was in California. Minor details. Jason spent the next 4 days driving down to get the boat and back home. Crazy boy.
But, I do have to admit. We are LOVING it! The only thing I can say about my moment of weakness was "WHAT TOOK ME SO LONG!"
This is our first evening out on Lake Sammamish. And this is what I loved so much about having a boat growing up. We were always eating pizza on the boat and after we would each take a couple ski rides. Now the legacy lives on. :)
I always thought the kids were too little to enjoy being in the boat and out on the water but they are really loving it. And they get braver and braver every time we go out....which is everyday the sun in shining....no joke!
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